Much of what happens to Meg and Rex aboard
Chelone in Blue Water (William Morrow/Harper 2006)
are derivatives of A. Manette Ansay’s open
ocean experience aboard the real Chelone with her
husband,
Jake. The University of Miami associate professor
of English and prolific author did endure batten-down-the-hatches
squalls, days adrift in a windless stasis, and other
salty-dog calamities during her three-month stay
on
the 38-foot sailboat. But the rest of the elaborate
tale comes from a robust imagination that unfurls
through a detailed regimen. After all, balancing
a full teaching
load, a 3-year-old daughter, and the occasional flare-up
of a disease that formerly crippled her can inhibit
the creative mind.
“In an ideal world, especially approaching the
end of a novel, I write pretty much around the clock,” Ansay
says. “I’ve got a book on tape going, I’ve
got the computer on, I’ve got some meaningless
project usually involving housework, and I just revolve
around those things and sleep weirdly in between. I’ve
often gone to colonies to finish books.”
It was in fact at The MacDowell Colony—the
prestigious artist’s colony in New Hampshire
that has hosted the likes of Aaron Copland and Alice
Walker—that
Ansay received a call from Oprah Winfrey about Vinegar
Hill. The story of a woman’s struggle with
overbearing in-laws and the harsh inflexibility of
religion, Vinegar Hill is Ansay’s first
novel and a 1999 Oprah Book Club Selection.
“The hardest thing was that Oprah said I couldn’t
tell anyone,” Ansay recalls. “I had been
living and working closely with 16 artists for a month,
and when they asked who had called, I couldn’t
tell them.”
After her chat with Oprah, Ansay retreated
to her cabin and sat at the piano Leonard Bernstein
used during
his stay at MacDowell in the 1970s. It was an appropriate
perch for her; she was once a piano performance major
at the Peabody Conservatory of Johns Hopkins University.
An illness with debilitating symptoms similar to multiple
sclerosis struck in 1984, forcing her to leave Peabody
in her second year. That’s when she took up writing.
Ansay, a native of Wisconsin, met husband
Jake in 1987 as a student at the University of Maine.
She was soft-spoken
and studious, and he was outgoing and personable. She
would spend time watching birds “on the rambling
parts of campus,” and he would be watching her—not
because she was in an electric wheelchair and had braces
on her arms and legs, but because she was someone he
wanted to meet. “It was a non-issue for him,” Ansay
says, noting that she was very independent despite
her disability. “We’re still on our first
date.”
The couple married in 1990, a year before
Ansay completed her Master of Fine Arts degree at Cornell
and began
teaching. For her 1999 appearance on Oprah, she insisted
the producers film her both in her scooter and getting
out of her scooter to show that people with disabilities “don’t
have wheelchairs super-glued to their butts.” The
publicity from the show drove Vinegar Hill past the
million-copies-sold mark, allowing Ansay to stop working
and investigate her illness full time. After completing
Limbo, a memoir detailing her illness, she spent a
year as an outpatient in an integrative medical center
in New York City, where doctors determined she suffered
from a deficiency in progesterone. Hormone therapy
combined with immune-building treatments resolved the
majority of her symptoms within six months.
“If Oprah hadn’t happened
to pick up a book I’d
written at the age of 25, I would not be walking today.
I would not have a child. Sometimes, I wonder if I’d
even be alive,” Ansay writes on her Web site,
www.amanetteansay.com.
In 2001 a newly able-bodied Ansay set
sail for three months with Jake aboard Chelone, the
wellspring from
which Blue Water began to flow. The book was originally
a story about betrayal, infused with elements of airplanes
and flying. But after living aboard Chelone and after
daughter Genevieve was born, the story morphed into
a sea-based tale of the relationship between a woman
who lost her child and the woman whose actions took
away the life of that child. The grieving mother, Meg,
described the emptiness in the way friends tried to
console her: “You grasp at such comforts the
way a drowning person might reach for a piece of barbed
wire. Because it is there. Because it is all you have.” The
reference, it seems, also could describe the hope of
a young woman who spent nearly 15 years in a wheelchair
without explanation.
“I wrote most of the final version
of Blue Water at the Holiday Inn Coral Gables during
my second semester
at the University of Miami,” says Ansay, who
now lives with Jake and Genevieve in northern Palm
Beach County, where her brother and parents live. She
commutes to Miami via Tri-Rail.
Chronic eyestrain limits the amount
of time Ansay can work consecutively, whether it’s on her five
books presently under way or grading student work.
Ansay loves how teaching gives her “a sense of
contribution that’s very much cause and effect.” A
pivotal teaching moment came early in her career, when
she was an assistant professor of English at Vanderbilt
University. She had overheard students talking about
her in the library stacks.
“In a nutshell, they determined that if I was
any good as a writer, I wouldn’t be teaching,” she
recalls. “I thought for a long time about what
my teachers have meant to me and what I want to mean
to my students. I realized I didn’t have any
illusions about teaching; I do it simply because I
love it.” Meredith Danton is editor of Miami magazine. |